Today I tried to rewrite your pages

No matter how much the ink touched the paper, the numbness you left never eased because you went quietly without a sound, without a note

silently.

I tried to dig the memories that used to be mine, but the walls caved in

leaving me empty and alone grasping your scatted image

I tried moving on without you, but our unachieved dreams give me sleepless nights of who I could’ve been with you, As the night mourns who I once was with you.

Life carved out a journey that led me to lose you. If I could, I would start all over again.

To rewrite our ending if it meant getting you back.

I miss your recklessness, the fire in your eyes, your laughter, the hunger for success, the girl who strived for life and fought battles, just so she could say, I was here, and I did it.

The You who used to be mine.  You who used to hold me by the hand and never let me go. You who was my strength and light. You who fought life just so that I could breathe.

You who left me lifeless.

May you see this letter and remember the woman I am misses you the girl who I was once.